Not updating here is a good thing.

The gap between posts is getting larger, this is mostly a good sign, it means I'm being more accepting of what's happening in my life, not having to complain and brood my mind over. I found other ways to deal with it, simply giving myself limited time to sulk or grief over it seems to work, also busying myself with activities to keep the mind away from just plain thinking.

The bad side of it is that I don't share much with it to anyone at all, the last episode of WHIC is to express that and announce myself to be rid of the past and move on to my present life. I put lots of effort in it, in order for me to be satisfied with the message i'm trying to give, it didn't matter who watched it, as long as someone gets it and myself for finally end for what i have begun. The idea was never meant to last, it had to end at some point but i was in denial of it.

Maybe the stats are wrong but I know my blog is rarely visited by you, that's partly the reason i've stopped posting regularly, i'm not angry about it but in fact, i'm grateful, because you indirectly pushed me to face my problems in the reality, accept and be emotional about it there instead of here where i hope everyday someone reads it, now i only need myself and so I thank you for that. However, due to that fact, i'll probably delete this blog too, once and for all. It's serving no purpose at all than to express my sadness and negativity of my life.

So this is sort of a goodbye to the "social life" here, Facebook remains to be my indefinite thoughts and compilation of memories, although only in photos nowadays. My sharing of my personal life will end here with this post, if you read this before i delete this blog, than it is much appreciated, if not, than this is a goodbye only to myself and two years of my past self.

Farewell.

The chapter of my life.

To tell you the truth, i haven't been dandy for a while, it's partly because of family matters affecting my personal life. I don't know if you know but i have a nephew recently, son of my eldest brother, his name's Li An. Much more recently, after a month due to family matters, my brother's living back at home, hence my nephew too, at first I was happy about it but later developed some level of stress from helping to take care of him because again, due to family matters.

I hardly have a peaceful time doing my things without being periodically help feed the baby and generally calm the baby, a cry from him makes me want to stab my own ears. I don't know how long I can take it before i snap like my mother had a few days ago, i seriously hate problems caused in the family and especially the ones who cause it. As far as i can tell you, I'm not suppose to be even bothered by the up-bringing of the child if not for ignorant fools, my mother is made to suffer because of their decisions, suffice to say, their actions or omissions may very affect my nephew's health. I'm only helping because i want to alleviate some of the pain my mother's experiencing, for God's sake she's getting in her 60's. Sigh.. i need to tell this to someone in person, the steam i coop up just hasn't been completely released, family problems, i have too many.

The only thing i can do to avoid stressing myself out is living a night life, that's why i started to make videos during midnight instead of in the daytime. Going out on weekends to play some wargames also helps but not alot, because i'm already mentally stressed out afterwards. I guess what's lacking is somebody to talk to about it and of course generally talking to no one outside of my home every passing weekdays. I guess i'm experiencing the consequences of not having the initiative to interact with someone. Wait all I want, i'm not gonna sit down with friends for another three more months if i remain like this.

The chapter of my life.

Possible.

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