When was the last time when I, myself successfully made friends.

I can't remember at all.

It's been countless failures when I tried again...

Inaban from Kokoro Connect

I'm her, for some reason this character's personalities is almost like me, albeit simplified and a female version of me. The similarities is so, unbelievable.

Is it by chance I found this anime?

How would my story differ from her?

Status Report

It's not like I had abandoned my blog, just that I'm trying to wait for a time I'm emotionally stable and write something normal for a change.

So here I am, in UK for little more than a week. I would say I still have some more settling down to do but I'm more or less comfortable with living here.

Aberystwyth is in Wales which is infamous for its steep hills and slopes. Aside from my weak stamina, every experience so far is good. A very convenient place to live since everything is within a few minutes reach depending on the transportation method.

I'm beginning to see how I truly get along with the world, I don't plan on relying too much on my friends but it is inevitable. Because you rely on someone, you end up not realising how you could even stand on your own.

But I'm not saying you should never seek help, although somtimes help comes when you least expect it. During my flight to Dubai, for your information I've never flew alone so it was a very nervous time of my life. For some miracle, an old lady that was very knowledgeable in travelling since she had been for some 30 years now; coincidentally she was criminal lawyer with a flawless record until this year that she retired.

Unfortunately, the email she gave was either wrong or I made a mistake. I forever will not be able to contact her. But I guess she's someone I'll always remember.

Back to my point though, I have shared things with my flatmates, but then I have not shared myself. My company and the real me to precise. My true identity, living here will define who I am and how I would deal with most situations.

My first lesson, living together with someone is to mean that you have to make compromises. Compromises that either benefits you or the person you're living with. Yet I see people still clinging to "friends" as the status of the relationship to such a scenario.

People will suffer because you can't sacrifice something for them. Yet, this simple logic among flatmates is not mutual, we would rather live by own rules than the equal enjoyment of everyone.

I can't agree to parties/crowds held in residence, even if I'm in one, because I know someone is not invited and will be adversely affected by it. That is why I will not be in one as much as possible.

There's so much to say, but for now,
tolerate and understand people equally.