Some times you think you have gotten over a thing that happened in the past and you've already moved on, you might have thought wrong.
(Hey, I'm back, haven't updated for a loooong time, cause, well, life's been great, solo-tastic.)
Since I went to UK, I've given the "OK" to myself to consider going out with someone I'm interested, there's various reasons but mainly cause my studies weren't going to be affected that much anymore and soon I'll have to 'step into the real world' anyways.
I've kept my promise to my parents and did good. I've graduated with a Second Upper Class. I'm happy that my family is proud of me, but doesn't seem a grand achievement when most of us gotten it with the difficulty not as most people have perceived.
But I digress, I'm sure it is my limited view of other classmates for my opinion. In any case, not saying I'm alone, but I was pretty much living with myself for 9 months. Contrary to might what people think, I was quite relieve that I'm rid off most societal interactions and just be free in my own world.
I was truly being myself, but I guess that's the problem. More or less, it weakened any bond that I have with friends that are not within my near location, and even my might have cut them off from my life.
For the time right now, it is impossible for me to know more people, and so the possibility of a date happening would just be a miracle.
Well, my "not having a relationship for my entire life" wouldn't be a problem, because I've let fate decide that for me. The problem is my stupid subconsciousness.
I have been having annoying dreams lately, dreams about the girl I've liked in the past going out with someone from my past that I've never met for years. I wake up feeling like crap and felt like that for much of the day, which affects my daily activities.
It's strange, you think you got over a person, but the past seems to come back to haunt you. What does it take to be rid of it, completely?
With my personality and my promise, no relationship was possible. But I guess some part of me do regret the decisions I make.
It is as people say, if you didn't make things clear, show how you truly feel, you will always wonder what could have happen and regret the chances you had lost for the rest of your life.
Hah, you'd thought removing every physical and digital things that reminded you of them, they will slowly fade away from your mind. But as long as it has been scarred into your brain, you'll remember whether or not you want to or not.
Unrequited loves suck.
(Hey, I'm back, haven't updated for a loooong time, cause, well, life's been great, solo-tastic.)
Since I went to UK, I've given the "OK" to myself to consider going out with someone I'm interested, there's various reasons but mainly cause my studies weren't going to be affected that much anymore and soon I'll have to 'step into the real world' anyways.
I've kept my promise to my parents and did good. I've graduated with a Second Upper Class. I'm happy that my family is proud of me, but doesn't seem a grand achievement when most of us gotten it with the difficulty not as most people have perceived.
But I digress, I'm sure it is my limited view of other classmates for my opinion. In any case, not saying I'm alone, but I was pretty much living with myself for 9 months. Contrary to might what people think, I was quite relieve that I'm rid off most societal interactions and just be free in my own world.
I was truly being myself, but I guess that's the problem. More or less, it weakened any bond that I have with friends that are not within my near location, and even my might have cut them off from my life.
For the time right now, it is impossible for me to know more people, and so the possibility of a date happening would just be a miracle.
Well, my "not having a relationship for my entire life" wouldn't be a problem, because I've let fate decide that for me. The problem is my stupid subconsciousness.
I have been having annoying dreams lately, dreams about the girl I've liked in the past going out with someone from my past that I've never met for years. I wake up feeling like crap and felt like that for much of the day, which affects my daily activities.
It's strange, you think you got over a person, but the past seems to come back to haunt you. What does it take to be rid of it, completely?
With my personality and my promise, no relationship was possible. But I guess some part of me do regret the decisions I make.
It is as people say, if you didn't make things clear, show how you truly feel, you will always wonder what could have happen and regret the chances you had lost for the rest of your life.
Hah, you'd thought removing every physical and digital things that reminded you of them, they will slowly fade away from your mind. But as long as it has been scarred into your brain, you'll remember whether or not you want to or not.
Unrequited loves suck.
