Anyways, hey Valentine's Day came. How are you going about it on this day, readers? I pretended it's not a thing throughout the day, since I have the usual lectures going on.
And hey, still no progress. It's not working I guess as normal, my way that is. Social networks suppose to make things easier, aren't it?
This girl, or any girl I'm interested in for that matter, aren't seem to be technologically dependent I guess. As in they are rather not integrated as much as guys in terms of communicating. I don't know, is this true or it's really just because it's weird to talk to someone in the internet first?
It's really hard to chat like this though. Do you think it's possible to stay connected to the internet for almost the whole day? Because it doesn't seem like most people are, even though they have lots of friends.
Again, I'm not sure, I've been separated from the majority of previous social life, that I'd forgotten how I used to be able to chat with friends. Or maybe it's the very fact that I choose to talk to very few people.
It doesn't seem like she's interested. It's pretty obvious when a person just gives relatively Yes and No answers to you when you're chatting, an immediate conversation finisher. It meant that there's nothing she wants to divulge to me nor anything that she wants me to share with. As if I'm forcing something that shouldn't be.
It could be because she doesn't type English words often, since she seems to type Chinese words more often in other places, if not all of them. But basically adds to the fact that talking to me becomes difficult to connect with me, though I understand either language just can't type Chinese words fast enough.
I might be jumping to conclusions but I've been trying for several times. It came to the point it felt like it was deliberate for her to avoid me. Most of the time there won't be any reason as to why, just no further response. I guess I have a hard time accepting that people in the campus don't have their phone's internet connection enabled for most of the time. With messages easily known whether or not they are read or at least had been notified, it's hard to believe you can avoid or miss them completely. I guess it's creepy? I'm not sure.
Ahh, well, it's not like I planned to do anything on this day, I've thought about giving chocolates like the two years ago but I guess it became pointless to do so. I might just be hoping some kind of fantasy to happen. The day still bugs me though.
