05 May 2014

Try, try and keep on trying.

If first you don't succeed, try until you die.

It seems wherever I am, whoever I meet. I can't seem to be close to a girl. The more effort I put in one, the quicker she shuts me away.

Ironically, the ones that are still friends, are not as close but they are there, still acknowledging you as a friend.

I decided to believe it's just my rather weak social skills and anti-social tendencies failing my attempts to befriend a girl.

I indeed, do not know how, besides for my mother, my whole my family consists of all male. The only lesson my mum taught me, was to treat a girl with the up most standard. The further information I obtain is just through observation, movies, cartoons, animes, dramas and what not.

Unfortunately, the problem cannot be solved in such a way, for that I lack the most important thing, how to be a friend.

I have never, through my own full initiative and effort, to befriend a guy or a girl. It is always someone taking the first step or a guiding hand to another. What is too warm a friendly act or too cold a stranger's shoulder, I cannot decide the correct choice without knowing what was wrong in the very beginning.

But truly, I can see that I'm making all the wrong choices, with the wrong persons. Vast is the different personalities found in each person.

I only know what I liked in other people, but not what other people would like in me.

This confusing dilemma drives me so, but I still continue to search for more answers, whether right or wrong.

Try, try and keep on trying.