The computer's back online, i'm happy about it but part of me still remain shameful of it. Why? Although the lightning was the cause of the motherboard's destruction, i was the one who is responsible for it. I was suppose to have pulled the plug that connects to the computer when the rain was getting bad, i did, or so i thought.
In my memory, i definitely remember i bend down to the floor and unplug the plug, but after some sparks, it proved me wrong. I'm starting to think that, because of my emotional self, i could not focus on tasks given to me. Because of this, i caused trouble to the people around me. I'm not sure how am i gonna solve my problem, maybe you're right, i shouldn't think too much about friendship, love and all that confusing crap, just believe in them i guess, why's it so hard to do?
Well, anyways, when my brother came back, the first thing he wanted to do was go to Low Yat and get a new motherboard. Some where inside me, says he wasn't just doing this for himself. I did the best i could to help him of course, but even then i don't think it was enough to cover the 350 bucks costs for it and the trip to there and back home. Sometimes i wonder why am i so blind and clueless.
If anyone doesn't remember because of the pointless posts(except for advertising David Choi), i'm a member of the Prom Planning Committee. So far it's getting excited, getting only, since after having a trip down to Renaissance Hotel and having a meeting, factually, we seem to have little progress after a week had passed. Reasons? easy, most of us are just starting to enjoy holidays, who wants to immediately start working on unpaid jobs right after a stressful exam? Not me of course.
One more reason would be the incentive to do so, since it's a voluntary work, i don't think there is much push to work on time, i definitely don't accept the "there's still a lot of time before the prom starts" reason since to be frank, there isn't much free time after the holidays are up and we all have to start having classes weekly, schedules will be packed, stress imposed by assignments and exams, what more can i say? Well, just hope we don't procrastinate too badly.
Well, that's probably just what i can only say, since this prom is gonna be a special one, but since it's special, it's gonna be really really, really, hard to pull off. Honestly though, if we don't push ourselves super hard during this holidays, then we won't even be able to work properly when class starts, making an awesome prom would just be a distant goal.
Videos, finally after today(Sunday), i'll be able to start working on them, for maybe just two days before i have to go to Penang with my family for a couple of days. Sidetracks after sidetracks, well that's my life, destined to become mediocre, i'll just have to accept it. One thing about making the three previous episodes i recently made, is that i'll forever remember how people inside the video, talk, act and behave. But my point is, if you repetitively listen to someone say the same thing again and again, god, you'll definitely scream, SHUT UP, because i have to know what they are talking about so i don't make scenes seemed out of place and make the viewers wonder what the hell they are talking about.
But the good thing about is that it's not really boring to do talk scenes, you learn more about your friends better i guess, and i found quite some interesting behaviours of some of you such as our most often seen friend, Junior, basically he always take the initiative to bring out his ideas but rarely listens attentively as he doesn't exactly know what the person is actually talking about or what the person really meant until the person himself or someone corrects him ie, Marcus/Kim.
Marcus would be the opposite of Junior, he only expresses his thoughts when it is appropriate and most of the time quietly listens to other ramble and occasionally asks straight to the point questions, though mostly the way he expresses would be through acting with the person next to him or with himself, ie suddenly holding "somebody's" hand or act like some foreign dude.
Through the videos, i know my friends, they all have their unique individuality, Kim the girl who's a narcissist, occasionally 'hyperactive' but definitely has that sweet and cheery aura about her. Lee Tat the boy that thinks he is a wise man as he has an abundant knowledge on political issues, religious views and really knows how to enjoy a luxurious life. Yik Yee, the girl that has badass and wild spelled all over her. Jo Ann, the girl that knows her way around books, korean bands/groups/artists/anything and somehow, not bad playing around with words and her hidden beauty. See Wei, the girl, that's sometimes quiet, sometimes lovingly, sometimes cheery, sometimes sensitive, but surely an unpredictable one. Bla bla bla bla i put up quite a few already, don't shout at me if i didn't mention you because it's 5.23AM and i'm hallucinating.
Perhaps, it's their way for them to be uniquely part of this group of friends, this community, this life. No one's ever boring, no one's ever bad, they only are when you view them as such.
How am i now, well for starters, i'm still single and i virtually don't have a lot of friends to hang out, but i'll probably still live my days, i still have my family but more importantly, i still have myself, i don't know what am i gonna do if i ever lose myself, hahah. Well, that's just right now i guess, i'll spend my holidays pretty much with my family and i, don't matter, even if it stays like this for a week, a month or even a year, i'm still living, and technically, i still have friends, even though we're not by a lot of chance, going to be close,
but,
we're still friends.
Happy Holidays to all.
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