The gap between posts is getting larger, this is mostly a good sign, it means I'm being more accepting of what's happening in my life, not having to complain and brood my mind over. I found other ways to deal with it, simply giving myself limited time to sulk or grief over it seems to work, also busying myself with activities to keep the mind away from just plain thinking.
The bad side of it is that I don't share much with it to anyone at all, the last episode of WHIC is to express that and announce myself to be rid of the past and move on to my present life. I put lots of effort in it, in order for me to be satisfied with the message i'm trying to give, it didn't matter who watched it, as long as someone gets it and myself for finally end for what i have begun. The idea was never meant to last, it had to end at some point but i was in denial of it.
Maybe the stats are wrong but I know my blog is rarely visited by you, that's partly the reason i've stopped posting regularly, i'm not angry about it but in fact, i'm grateful, because you indirectly pushed me to face my problems in the reality, accept and be emotional about it there instead of here where i hope everyday someone reads it, now i only need myself and so I thank you for that. However, due to that fact, i'll probably delete this blog too, once and for all. It's serving no purpose at all than to express my sadness and negativity of my life.
So this is sort of a goodbye to the "social life" here, Facebook remains to be my indefinite thoughts and compilation of memories, although only in photos nowadays. My sharing of my personal life will end here with this post, if you read this before i delete this blog, than it is much appreciated, if not, than this is a goodbye only to myself and two years of my past self.
Farewell.
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