You can say, it's been a week since I stepped out of my house.
Some would probably think what a sad lonely I have. But on the contrary, one of the best weeks I ever had.
Part of the time I still study, however most of the time I watched anime and played role playing games. Many of which were meaningful, funny, complex and deep. After watching so many different animes, I'd realise half of the life lessons I learned comes from there, the other from my parents.
Some of them relatable to my current life, some relates to the overview of the world. It is surprising that for one problem or situation, can be viewed in so many ways which would still make sense. Though I do wonder if after watching them, any of my thinking had changed in any way.
One thing I've come to tell myself is that even though the life we live in, is full of disappointment and despair; there are people that will not let that destroy they imagination but let them loose and express it in animation. Even if our world is a world of reality, it is the only world where it 'creates' other worlds, places you never been to, places you can only dream of. An escape from reality? Perhaps, perhaps not.
Even though, I live a quiet life, it doesn't mean it's not interesting. I always try to reach for the skies in a way because I always want to do something different. I do not accept my routine life just because it is appropriate, it's the right thing to do. If I do, it's no different than giving up on my life and live like robot. I'd play a game for a change, I'd play with my dog for a while, I'd paint my models, I'd practice singing, I'd learn how to read the japanese language; as long as I'm not doing something monotonous like studying all the time.
Which would quite explain I don't forward to classes, you can't fully relate whatever I do to the others. That's why I seem to distant myself but it is the other way round. Just this last Monday, KH invited me to watch a movie on Wednesday, I rejected. Why? Do you want to go out with two pair of couples and watch a movie with them? Frack no. I'm already over about crap like crushes, yet dense people, are dense. He wanted me to ask 'one' out.
So what does this mean for me? Am I anti-social? No. The circumstances of life are the cause of it, it is just not my time. Sometimes you wonder why everyone in college, that was close to you, are fading through your vision, as if blending with the crowd at background again. But that is just 'my unique fate', sometimes you wish to experience a normal teenage life but somehow, you're different from the others. You've never encountered such a recurring and worsening social problem that you can't handle, as if you're only moving in circles.
That's why, I've decided and accepted my life is of this 'kind' and let fate steer in the direction it wants.
Some would probably think what a sad lonely I have. But on the contrary, one of the best weeks I ever had.
Part of the time I still study, however most of the time I watched anime and played role playing games. Many of which were meaningful, funny, complex and deep. After watching so many different animes, I'd realise half of the life lessons I learned comes from there, the other from my parents.
Some of them relatable to my current life, some relates to the overview of the world. It is surprising that for one problem or situation, can be viewed in so many ways which would still make sense. Though I do wonder if after watching them, any of my thinking had changed in any way.
One thing I've come to tell myself is that even though the life we live in, is full of disappointment and despair; there are people that will not let that destroy they imagination but let them loose and express it in animation. Even if our world is a world of reality, it is the only world where it 'creates' other worlds, places you never been to, places you can only dream of. An escape from reality? Perhaps, perhaps not.
Even though, I live a quiet life, it doesn't mean it's not interesting. I always try to reach for the skies in a way because I always want to do something different. I do not accept my routine life just because it is appropriate, it's the right thing to do. If I do, it's no different than giving up on my life and live like robot. I'd play a game for a change, I'd play with my dog for a while, I'd paint my models, I'd practice singing, I'd learn how to read the japanese language; as long as I'm not doing something monotonous like studying all the time.
Which would quite explain I don't forward to classes, you can't fully relate whatever I do to the others. That's why I seem to distant myself but it is the other way round. Just this last Monday, KH invited me to watch a movie on Wednesday, I rejected. Why? Do you want to go out with two pair of couples and watch a movie with them? Frack no. I'm already over about crap like crushes, yet dense people, are dense. He wanted me to ask 'one' out.
So what does this mean for me? Am I anti-social? No. The circumstances of life are the cause of it, it is just not my time. Sometimes you wonder why everyone in college, that was close to you, are fading through your vision, as if blending with the crowd at background again. But that is just 'my unique fate', sometimes you wish to experience a normal teenage life but somehow, you're different from the others. You've never encountered such a recurring and worsening social problem that you can't handle, as if you're only moving in circles.
That's why, I've decided and accepted my life is of this 'kind' and let fate steer in the direction it wants.
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