Since the final examination for my studies is not as stressful as it should be, i would still find myself busy with house chores, hanging out more with friends and still managed to scrape some time for studying. Yet behind every action, there's always, "The Wait Game" which we all play in our lives; it's either you are the one waiting or being waited by somebody else. For an example from me, I would wait for exams to finish even though it's extremely boring since during that period time of waiting i had already run through the syllables for more than several times. Another example would waiting for friends to do something together like singing karaoke, hang outs or just plain old study.
Well these are the specific ones of the "Wait Game", if you move backwards a bit and look it at a wider range of sight; you're waiting to get decent jobs from higher education; you're somehow waiting friends to become good friends and later wait to become close friends or best friends, or some rare cases you might even wanted it to become more than just friendship. Or i should just simplify it into one sentence, we're just waiting time to pass by so that something might happen or change.
Finished exams, what's next? Wait for the results, and while i'm waiting for that, im waiting to be with my friends together in classes again, waiting to say goodbye to the one's i won't be seeing much more often. If i have to talk about waiting, it'll definitely be endless. In conclusion, you will always have to wait for something either bad or good.
About the karaoke last Thursday, even though it may seem we had fun during that time, to be really honest, lots of things are missing and changing. Just from that event, it spelt conclusion of the reasons, the changes, the effects happened to our group of friends. In comparison with before, 7 people are just too little to have enough accumulated excitement. Why most of them didn't come are certainly just obvious reasons that are acceptable and can be ignored completely. However, because of that, for me it was clearly showing, what has changed these recent months, i wished it was mostly good but there's no denying the truth that we are just being over-sensitive and over-ignorant about each other.
Sometimes i think it's just overreacting, dwelling too deeply into doubts which then creates your own illusions and blocking what's truly the reason behind those doubts. Where both opposing parties have such doubtful minds, it is only through a third parties point of view; their views, which are not be tainted by the sides, can clearly see through their flaws in their heart against each other.
Even though, us, the third parties that can interpret without being swayed by the opposing parties' clouded minds, we can never be successful to prevent, judge nor advise them from falling into their own battles and traps until an event that may finally make our words reach their hearts or just by self-realizing what they have done was always been wrong but then again, their minds are chained-locked between opposing sides and the third parties themselves, whether they want to realize the fact earlier or not, depends not on us but themselves.
I wanted to help you,
but in actuality or unnoticeable of my actions ,
I crave to be with you.
even if subconsciously i truly wish to deny it.
But through this guise of being your friend,
you do not dare to believe my warnings yet it is inevitably possible,
He may have always been good to people,
though my doubtful mind, always cautioned me of a similar past,
yet, so easily the past, clouds my mind that thinks of you.
You and I will be deaf to the words of nobody,
we only believe our thoughts and hearts even if they may betray us.
However, there is always that game we all play,
where we all wait for the truth to come,
be it for you or me.
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