Usually, my hands get itchy to write something in my blog after two or three days of posting the last one, but i just don't seem to have enough alone time + writing time this passing few days. Though either good or bad, more material for me to write if the gap between posts furthers apart more from each other.
Currently, leg condition is getting, either really slowly or i'm just ignoring it. But since i could start practising dances, i guess i'm coping with it while slowly recovering? I'm just glad i can join with the committee members and others to practice our performance. Dancing is something i'll never say no to, given the chance. However, i guess with limited movement on my right leg, it's tough practising while focusing most of the weight on the other one. Hopefully it recovers to 70-80% functionality before prom, could've practice better if it weren't for my leg.
Anyhow, honestly, my first time practising with a bunch of people and counting steps, all the while i've been free-styling and just moving to the beat of the music, no choreography what so ever. New experience for me but it is actually fun and exciting. I need to put 150% effort more than others though, since i have problem following counts and dance to the beat, not to mention the defective leg i currently have to deal with. Really disappoints me to wake up every day, thinking it has finally healed but the second i move it, reality kicks in.
Holidays for me probably just equals more time for prom work and assignments, though have to admit i still procrastinate from time to time. Before you know it, classes are about to start again. Can't say after prom i'll be free of miscellaneous stuffs to do, there's still videos to edit, models to paint, exercise, etc..
Sad thing about the end of the prom would be, things will be back to the way it is, or most of it. The times with Yannie, Mei Yen, Mei Quin, Kexin, Xiao Hui, Su Ann, May Jean, Wan Ching, Marcus, Kean Hoe and Asyraf.. yeah, it'll probably just stop around there. Don't know about you all, but it really saddens me in a way. We may see each other every now and then, although not as often. But what happened, did happen. I worked in the prom with you all did not meant we only had a professional relationship, if it was i would be constantly backstabbing or in disagreement with people against me, in the end i treat everyone no better or worse but with respect and giving my full cooperation whenever needed, whenever possible.
In a way, I see this only as a test, with all this; working under pressure, delays, setbacks, issues, unsatisfactory results..etc ; show ourselves who we really are and how we deal with it. For me, i see it as a test for my tolerance to others, will i either put our friendship in jeopardy and insist on giving the best prom through my eyes; or should i be understanding and be cooperative what ever the members suggest. It may well be important for us to professionally do our jobs, but it is equally important to remind ourselves this is not a real business, in a sense that if it was, we would be stepping on each others head to gain the top seat, to be the one in charge, in other words, the hunger for control and power would consume us.
If we break under pressure, what comes after unable to cope with pressure? You become inefficient, irresponsible, irrational, emotional. You start to panic or slack. Fed up of coming up a solution with individuals, blaming each other, stuck in a mess. But mainly, unmotivated to do your job.
In a real company, a person would've quit, no one would have cared; but i remind myself, this is not a company, this is a group of people, who volunteered to work with each other, a team that catches who ever is falling, friends that band together to reach the same goal.
This is my final say, no more rambling on the past, i just want to remind the people who had joined, that despite mistakes, don't matter if it was serious or not, just don't take it in too deep because you were friends, we're still humans, we make stupid choices, we decide them emotionally, but they are definitely, forgiveable, because do you remember? you were once friends. If you do not feel the same way, if you never thought you were friends with each other; You should at least, not hate the person just for his mistakes, because hate is a very harsh and bold emotion that you should only used when it is really needed.
This is Jake, wishing everyone can see the world a little brighter than they think it is.
Acceptance and understanding is key to a peaceful compromise.
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