13 May 2010

Too many things to say, too little attention to give. This is a crush i should’ve stopped months ago. Sorry.

Off topic: Seems like the only time i have blogged is mostly in a KTM train,it probably is awkward to blog when there’s total strangers beside you, but there’s also that cool feeling you get when you do something out of the ordinary. The truth about a silly thing is that it was the first time i saw the “women only” cart, not much diifference, just that it’s not as packed as the one i mean now, hahah.


Anyhow, the bloggers i’m following are not that active as compared a few months back, how have you all been? No more or less ambiguous or arbitrary posts to write? No offence but i do think about how you all would write as blogs are not really means to express fully about oneself and others. But like how i can just say i’m in love with a certain in college, in our group but she’s still clueless; not much of thought put into it right? Note, no matter what i said, i’d always disclose the person i’m talking about, as necessary as laws in our country are, people’s pride and privacy should always be important to one’s identity and security in life.

Nevertheless, i would still continue to be a free as i can as i cannot be as free as in the real world. As Marcus once told me, the virtual life’s but a reflection of the real one, albeit less truthful. Which meant that lie in this post would be the guts to tell it in the real world, which i would only do it here. Anyways, now to talk about certain bloggers type of writing, which in any case, i would say who it is not because i don’t want to say who it is but because not everyone is always fixed on a specific writing style.


Ok, for the first one, i would just want to talk about everyday life routine posts, more or less they are just about one of the bloggers event in her life etc, a shopping spree to the nearby mall, a karaoke session with friends, the music i heard, the korean boy bands, slutty singing artists and the usual “what i ate that day” and finally ends with a “what a wonderful day”. Now, as you can see, by following this way of posting, a reader most likely 1. Read through all of it the first time and then subsequently just look at the pictures(if there are any) if you would continuously to write daily life routines. There’s no option 2 unless the reader is a super stalker or fan of yours, the answer is still no.


To summarize the reason for posting the above style of blogging, my opinion would be 1. You think it was really a special day for you which readers usually don’t really agree with that thought. 2. You just want to tell it to yourself or record it down in your virtual journal, not really caring who reads it. 3. You know it annoys readers because they want to know more about you and not about what shopping or singing karaoke is like. I mostly would agree to the two latter views, because i would either feel irritated or do it myself. Hey, freedom of speech, eh? Piece of advice, whenever you want to write something like this, first you have to grab the attention of the reader to get caught in the trap of looking at random things about you, yeah write something that looks like you’re about to say something mind-blowing about yourself etc, ok i’m going to say it i have a crush with *** ****! and then just continue to write about Super Junior or something.


Anyways, a post about your day or the things you like won’t be as boring as i would have said it in the above way, one time in a month? depending on how frequent a person posts, i say you should not really post anything about your shopping spree, unless you bought a really sexy red dress or something, please don’t. Just looking at the title means that readers will usually just skim through.


Another type of blogging style is writing ambiguous or unclear stuffs about your feelings, more or less when a blogger writes about them would probably be when they are sad about something, he/she will only write how sad themselves are, never really knowing what’s the reason behind it. In a teen’s blog, you’d probably see loads of stuff how this guy never seem to get the girl he likes, same for girls. They will also continue on by asking themselves why they are sad although we can tell it’s because readers also don’t know since the blogger hasn’t written down anything clear about their problem.


At the end, you probably find yourself reading a post that makes no sense but only knowing it’s sad. The thing i can say is that it’s the opposite of writing about your daily life routines, that kind of posts have a lot of substance but nothing interesting, this one on the other hand, has a lot of attention grabbing lines but nothing solid to chew on.


As far as my experience in blogging and reading blogs, there always lie the privacy problem about blogging, you can never write 100% about something unless you want to break someone’s heart.make somebody avoid you or change the point of view about yourself. As many blogs as i have seen nothing is without something unmentioned in it. It takes a guy with some serious balls to confess about something and let it all out.

Truth is, the ultimate truth i’ve kept, one of the deepest darkest secret about the girl i have a crush on, she is Mei Quin. It’s probably a stupid thing to do, a reckless and shameful thing to say this, a pathetic and cheap way to confess; but i only had two choices, either hang there on the edge of the cliff, or just let go and fall to the ground below, it’s going to be painful but not as fatal as i would think. I see so little of you nowadays, yet those moments when we do, it’s saddening to not be able to talk to you when you are there. I don’t think i’m ready to sacrifice for you, the more i see you, the more i think about how pathetic i’m right now, i’d realize what a drop out in society i am and kept wanting to improve myself. All this time i have been dreaming, was but just a way to escape reality. I have to sacrifice for myself first, improve my physical appearance, improve my studies, improve my social skills, improve myself financially.


By the time i’ve done that, you’d probably find someone that’s much suited for you because what i shall do, is not for you but for myself. When the time comes it comes, now i just have to love myself..


























I really like you, i just don’t think i’m cut out for you or anyone right now.


Thanks for the support, people, but i got to stop running away, i got to wake up, move forward and grow up.

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