Permanent Change to Webcomics, probably.

Day 74 to 79(a week) - 24th to 29th May 2009

Well.. after being sick for probably three weeks, i haven't been doing any blogging lately, my illness gets seriously bad for most of the time and i thought writing about sick days won't be as interesting as anyone would normally think being sick is exciting but as for now i think i seem to have settled down now.

Since i was sick i took lots of time just focusing on studies to avoid worsening of my illness( that didn't quite do the job) as i don't want stress my mind on anything that could make my brain explode. On the other hand, i have been watching a lot of webcomics lately and have been drawing random craps for quite some time now. And then boom! i decided i have mediocre art skills and a cheesy humour on life, why not i make one.

The one i made in my last post? Meh, i had given thought about posting my webcomics here but i don't think it will be nice having them here as it will actually get really complicated and frustrating to view them. In conclusion, in time i will be telling my daily life by drawing them in comic strips in another website that i will hosting them on sooner than you think. Don't worry when i get it up and running, i will post the address here where to find this webcomic of mine is at, i'll appreciate if you guys and girls understand.

As for this blog... i may forever stop working on it or may still continue whenever if i ever feel like it. The blog probably won't be as lively as before but it's still holds my months of memory, updates will come up even after i had moved to my webcomics.

The Name’s Jake

Well, people will start wondering “what the hell is this guy going to do next for after a long time”.There you have it, some crappy web comic i started to draw just a few days ago. There’s no serious plot in it just probably bits of my daily life turned to lame jokes for the sake that i just wanted to do so, hah.

However i would still continue writing my daily life with just an addition to some comic strips i probably add on to them on later posts; starting with this one.

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Day 67 to 71 – Sickening but other things remain good

17th to 21st May 2009

Well starting from Sunday, about my health, i wouldn’t say i’m getting worse but when i have flu i always have this stages that begins until the end, i will get weak on the first few days of infection and then moving on to having a sore throat, runny nose, and then the continuous dry coughing. There’s the optional symptom of having a fever i i haven’t had that since i took the vitamins and all that stuff.

But still, the most annoying part is having a sore throat for the time being, it’s really irritating when i drink or just swallowing anything that is liquid in matter. After Thursday there would be the next most annoying thing is coughing when i was trying to sleep. God i can go on and on about them frustrating sickness but i rather not.

However, i will start talking about my college life, been great since the beginning and still, is although i still have problems with making friends but i think i made some progressions this week. This kind of things always have my hopes up on this new life of mine, happy moments should happen more, i say. Another good news though is how straight forward is assignments are given by lecturers in this college, plus there aren’t many of them, me likey that way.

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Day 72 & 73

22nd & 23rd May 2009

Friday, had a 4 hour mathematics class; had some break time so i pull out Lil Happy for some over delayed blog work to be finished. The lecturer saw me using her and commented it’s cute and nice for girls. Yeah, not that that i’m angry about her but it’s probably true since i don’t think guys would normally choose such a laptop as the one i’m having.

After the class, the crazyness starts now, i went to my family apartment for my dad’s work. Over there, i went bowling with Max at a nearby mall, nice bowls but can’t even get a single X(strike) all the time, after that i was really tired so i took a nap at the apartment. At night, went to Carrefour with my parents, watch a Steven Chow classic movie with Max and Terb(just came) and finally went to a cyber cafe to play some games(FYI, it was L4D) with Max, Terb and Ulti (just came too) until 3 am, Awesome before i was super tired.

But before any of that happened, Chew Yun messaged about going out for a gathering tomorrow morning at my hometown, damn. I really wanted to go but in the end i was too late and too far from there to do anything about it, i felt very regretful but that’s life, you can’t have all the good things your way at some moments in time.

The next day, another insanely busy day, well to summarize it, i had a total of five places i went, all of them are in distinct and far apart places; most of the time i was driving. In one of the places i visited was Nilai, My family and I went to a shopping district which only sells textiles(cloths), long walk over there and it was quite warm. One other thing, i decided to have my hair cut in a sort of saloon which Max recommended since they had a promotion. Luckily it wasn’t really bad but surprising though as i haven’t properly had my hair cut for about 3 to 4 months, i think.

Wait the insanity doesn’t end there, after going to all that places, i still had to go back to the apartment to pack things up and only then that i finally went back to my hometown.

P.S : Still coughing like there’s no tomorrow though.

Day 63-66 - Friend Infection

Day 63 - 13th May 2009

Morning and afternoon class today, went early to college so i managed to switch on Lil Happy(my laptop) and get some blog-work done, fortunately she was small which meant that i can do my works almost anywhere; even in the train but there is the fact about the dangers from thieves i guess.

I've been worrying about Ramon, the guy who always sits beside me, he's now sick two days ago. Not H1N1, just a common flu; he was coughing repeatedly throughout the day which leads the concern to my health. I knew i was going to be infected and symptoms will start appearing later on, i was just being ignorant. Well nothing i can, just waiting for that moment come.

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Day 64 - 14th May 2009

Free day at last, did some research on diets and health related things today, just wanted to know how i can have a better figure that's all; so that afternoon i used for doing some exercises. Went outside to buy some flowers with my mom and Max.

After that we ate lunch, i was thinking about the glasses i bought and currently waiting for it to be finished and now a few days has past. Since the shop was near to where we were eating lunch at. So we decided to check if it's done and surprisingly, it was. Searched from a few dozens of other spectacles; this was the one that caught my eyes continuously.



It's a nice spectacle with the shining sides colored dark blue and black plates holding the top of the lens; but definitely, it feels different from my old one. Coincidently, my old one is of the similar colors, hah.

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Day 65 - 15th May 2009

About Ramon, the guy who was sick; well, actually today i started to feel woozy and weak. No doubt i was infected from him, nice, but i didn't put into much concern since it's just a flu. Unfortunately, since i was sick, i couldn't do much of anything major except wasting time on the internet.

Hmm, can't think of anything to write today, mostly it's just playing computer games for most of the day, cool.

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Day 66 - 16th May 2009

Still feeling weak but my throat is starting to feel sore. Only now i confirmed myself to be sicked; hate being sick, can't do anything about it; can't do anything else. For all the time to be sick why does it have to be now? With all the virus outbreaks, my parents don't really think my illness is serious though, weird.

Well, not that i want to have H1N1 or meningitis... scratch that, i don't want those diseases but the daily travel from my home to the college is by train, very concerned about that. Probably going to start wearing masks.. sigh

Manage to bring up some strength to do some blogging tonight, but still can't finish them. I was also thinking about writing a short story sometime later, probably a romance themed. It's been a long time since i wrote some kind of random things. I think writing story without being forced to do so or having restriction is the best way to show true potential and nature of a person. That's why one of my dreams is to become a writer or story teller, to be specific.

Day 60 to 62 – A pain in the a**

Day 60 – 10th May 2009

Sundays, not my best days of my life but i can still live through them, i probably said this before but i always feel there is always the 'waiting before the arriving’, in other words i think anything you're about to do later, you’d always have to do something before you do that certain thing, like i need to go to class tomorrow but leaving with me the last day to actually notice and become concerned about it.

I wasted some of my time playing games in the afternoon but I manage to practice(dance) a little bit although i still have a pile of assignments that is not even completed yet.

Time wasting always ends up having me rushing to complete my assignments, probably the reason is that i don’t plan my days properly, i just let things happen for all i care, wishing that i would complete things when the time comes, well it doesn’t come exactly where i wanted. There is always the saying ‘If you fail to plan, you plan to fail.’ I would always be reminded about that whenever i am unable to do something right on time. So i decided to start planning with a schedule book, hope that works though.

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Day 61 – 11th May 2009

Monday, when it is literally(and badly) translated to chinese words from it, it means a boring day, well just in a sense. Actually it’s quite true in my case, every Monday, it’s the Malaysian Studies class that starts first, history + morning = i don’t know what the heck your talking about.

Luckily there was no class in the afternoon(yet), so i went back home after having lunch with the guy called Ramon. Again, at home wasting time before doing some assignments, so it seems like I’m not disciplined enough yet though. Exercised a bit during sometime though, i thought it’s probably time to reduce some weight and gain some muscles for a change starting from today onwards. Hopefully i get a decent body within a month or more..

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Day 62 – 12th May 2009

I just wonder why it is more tiring to study in the afternoon than in the morning, i get to rest until late in the morning before school, yet that does not help myself getting much of spirits needed to spend the day, plus i received a sms from of my friends wanting to hang out again later that night.

God i was so tired that i took a nap right after i went back home from class. Undoubtedly, I'd still went to where my friends are having a chat, well, what are friends for? Besides, I don’t really have much of a free time to do so either(maybe).

Had a few chat, went back home, couldn’t sleep for an hour. For all what i know is that i can’t calm myself down until i tried to think random stuffs, still having a lot in my mind; in other words, i was still emotionally unstable, well not openly, in fact, i haven’t shown my true emotions one bit to anyone yet. Keeping emotions to myself is probably bad for me but still, it can’t be helped, peer pressure perhaps? Nonetheless, hoping again.

Day 58 & 59 - An extra fella

Day 58 - 8th May 2009

Spent the afternoon practicing(dance), cooking, surfing the net until i was so bored that i decided to call one of my friends to hang out and coincidentally, one of my long-lost friend came(online) out of the blues from doing national services, i was like so surprised that i didn't believe it was him. Unfortunately, he's not staying with us in our hometown for long, just until Friday. Well, what the heck i decided to call him out for a gathering with some other friends. It was fun chatting with him when i decided to add a bunch of people into the chatroom, it was so confusing that some people left, hah. But quite nostalgic at that very moment.

Anyways, the bad news is that most of the people that is close to him in terms of friends were busy, so i only manage to get a few people to come for tomorrow's gathering in the afternoon.
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Day 59 - 9th May 2009(Wesak Day)

Got up early today, was alone in the morning since mom and dad went to the temple with Uncle and Aunt Tee. First i did was checking MSN to comfirm some things on the gathering later and after that i bathed in the morning, brushed my teeth, washed my face, and tidy everything necessarily, yes i always prepare fully if i were to go out on any occasion, oh, didn't forget to wear clothes. After a while, i started my car, well not really my car but, in my family, unless anything important happened and someone needed cars, all the cars does not really have a name tag on it; meaning anyone in my family can drive the cars owned by my family members, well i just want to explain about that for a bit to avoid confusion.

Aww, look at how happy he is to see us

Hmm, not so happy to see him though

My first time driving alone for this month, haven't been driving alone since i haven't hang out with friends much, been using trying the train a lot more though. Anyways, i felt anxious but nothing extreme happended in particular, just feeling anxious. Went to the gathering, saw bald and long lost friend, Jr(Kok Leong) , SushiQueen and a few others. Had a few chats with for 3 hours with the amount of people there decreasing, one by one they were leaving until Jr. wanted to leave. It was a fun time, getting back together after such a long time had passed(3 months), hopefully i shall meet again with them.

Changing Heart

I am given a heart filled with love,
Yet it gives me fear.
I am given a heart filled with hope,
Yet it gives me doubt.
I am given a heart filled with care,
Yet it gives me jealousy.
I am given a heart filled with joy,
Yet it gives me regret.

However, my heart is always changing;
with every passing time, it changes but it can never stop.
However, my heart is always truthful;
with every other hearts, it changes but it can never lie.

Day 57 - Pop it like it's cold

Day 57 - 7th May 2009

Yup, today is the day i decided to make another video since last month, so this afternoon i started warming up to avoid sudden muscle cramps and have a smooth dance, well before that i did a few things like helping people in MSN, yes strangely, today lots of people were requesting my assistance.Anyways.. ..cameras, lights and... wait for the damn youtube to upload my video... and now action.

Day 56 - My long lost phone

Day 56 - 6th May 2009

At the break of dawn until dusk, i have discovered treasures i have been acquiring this whole month.

In other words, i spent half of the day on college. The usual, study more; avoid contact with people; ; study even more; avoid even more contact with people, nothing in particular interest oh except that today's english language class was more of a story-telling class, the lecturer told a nice story called Merchant of Venice written by William Shakespeare, everyone in the class silently listened to her until the very end.

Yay my phone is back, i can now take pictures of myself

I recommend having a look on the story just for relieving boredom, anyways after the class i went back home but before that i went to get my repaired phone back, yes my phone had been broken 'internally' and have been waiting for it for the last two weeks. Well, the bad thing was, my phone had 'amnesia' and forgotten all the phone numbers i had, great. So I'm trying to recover some of it and maybe some new ones(hopefully), anyways any phone numbers you can give me now are really appreciated, well not literally any number.

P.S. - Wear some black clothes tomorrow, it will bring you good luck, trust me.

Day 55 - A Night for Relaxing Work

Day 55 - 5th May 2009

Tiring afternoon class today, although sitting in a class for just three hours isn't much but to fully concentrate on that period of time is tough for me mentally. Just when the class finishes, i can feel my brain strained from all those focusing, heh. Anyways luckily today my dad came to fetch me and i get to drive back home , yay.

Home sweet home, except i had to finish some unfinished assignment from last week tonight. Fortunately i have my cute Lil Happy for me to help do it in my room. While working on it, i had a little chat with this girl i met in the internet, it was weird but still it was nice. Today was almost perfectly nice for me although i felt really tired today, i just wish for a longer period of happiness in my daily life. Nevertheless, happiness is hard to have but it is always needed for everyone.

Day 54 – Thinking and Writing Day

Day 54 – 4th May 2009

Yup to sum it up from Day 50 to 53 and the poem i made, i used most of my time today doing so after i had my morning class today. Reasons are today’s i sucked again socially; i managed to frigging eat lunch by myself after failing to ask some college mates to go, i felt so bad i hit myself in the face while they walk away, i felt so bad i was about swear publicly, luckily i didn’t.

When i was boarding the train, i was half awake, half dreaming since there wasn’t much of people on board as it was in the afternoon. Then i knew this won’t help me much so i closed and meditated for a while, i was a bit later that day and started writing.

When i start writing, i probably can’t stop cause all those feelings were overflowing into my fingers although only a little is converted into words. To keep me relaxed, i would listen songs which were soft and peaceful. Well, after that i watched an old animation as i listened to one of it’s beautiful soundtracks i decided to do so, it was a nice movie although a bit short but touching.

Scentless Flowers and Empty Mirror

I have been thinking of writing a poem for quite some now, eve since I was in high school i'd write loads of short stories and poems to express myself but some how i lost the willingness to do so but until now.

Flowers around your feet,
Beautiful as they seem,
Scentless without a whiff,
Until within your reached.

A person surrounded by friends and family,
the closest person to him though is himself,
yet he knows nothing when he sees a mirror.

Day 50 to 53 - Four Days of Home

I have been busy with assignments, daily activities but mostly staring blankly into the distance and just continuously think about everything; besides, the guy who brings the kitchen knife to college has been bugging too. So that explains why i haven't been writing the blog at all and probably right now, i wont really write much in detail until i get better socially and mentally in the near future.

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Day 50 - 30th April 2009

A day to finally get some dancing to do since I've been itching to make a video again to see how much i have improved after posting the first vid two months ago. I'd always hope that one day, I'd be able to perform on a stage to everyone i knew, friends and families all alike. That's one dream i really want to make it come true but all i can do now is practice and that's probably more than enough for the present time.

Since i gotten my Mini HP, i spent the night doing an assignment, it was kinda cool to do it in your own room and the laptop sitting gently on your lap(that's why they call it 'laptop', right?). Though Lil Happy( Yeah, i named it) was small and less powerful compared to others, she's my little precious.

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Day 51 - 1st May 2009(Labor's Day) + Day 52 of midnight to dawn - 2nd May 2009

Went to Kuala Lumpur to get my laptop bag this afternoon. Having my parents complaining about my current bag for being uncomfortable, we decided to me a new bag since i too recently got Lil Happy just two days ago. In the very end of our search, I narrow it down to two bags and conclusion, i bought both of them, one for Max and the other for me(he got nicer one).

After the long search, we went to our apartment and i took a nap for a while, yeah i was exhausted. Later i got back home and i stayed up all night long and just play games and what not for no reason, i didn't felt bad for wasting so much of my life though.

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Day 52 - 2nd May 2009

I only woke up until about 3 in the afternoon, now i feel pretty bad about staying up late. Anyways, to repent on what i have done, i did an assignment on economics for the next few hours. After that i waste myself again with games, god i hate myself. Well i didn't literally played games for the whole day, I'm not sure, i can't remember much except most of the time i used were on the computer.

Yeah i sucked pretty bad socially, i'd always keep telling myself that i will be better but that's probably me just proscratinating, sigh.

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Day 53 - 3rd May 2009

Not much to say but i did practice dancing again today, just for the heck of it since i am left with nothing to do. Did some learning through the internet, watch some of dancing vids of various events and downloaded a few songs to dance to.

I can probably say truly for myself is that dancing and writing is what i do best to fully express myself, in reality, i'm just a boring guy who's kinda nerdy and stares blankly into space nothing , nothing more than that to be really honest.