13 June 2010

You helped me create memories, i help you remember them.

I think most of us, if not, maybe only me, i some how kept ignoring that things are going to change after this examination. Yes, i certainly agree examination was a pain in this arse but when you think about it, what happens after a few weeks that we finally get our hands on freedom, what's the catch?

This time, just ignoring the fact won't do much, moving on is the hardest thing I can do now.

I won't say much, because it still hasn't happen yet, it would be really, really, really damn depressing to go through this holidays feeling like that. However, i've always asked myself, what's it going to be like after A-Levels? Will things ever be the same again? Will things be as cheery as before? Will we be able to move on?

20 - 15 - 10 ---- The numbers slowly decreasing, i've noticed it, but it happens just too slowly to give a damn about what's gonna happen next. The process of separation had already begun, when? i don't know but i do know, the process of moving on was inevitable afterwards. We can't stick together all the time, that's the cruel truth that i'll have to swallow after LLB starts.

Although you're moving on towards the people that are around you now,
know that, i'll stay a bit behind, why?
Because i'll make you remember,
the memories that we were together,
last forever in visual data form.
That's payback for moving on.

Truthfully, i had my doubts, i was afraid this is not gonna work, making videos was just a way for me comfort myself and the reality of it is that non of you really give a damn. All i can feel is fear when i think this really was what's going to happen, i feared i would loss myself to anger, regret, despair if it was true.

But, what happens the first time, will never happen again. I was immature and selfish, that was all it takes to loss friends that where i could find at no other place. With this two months or so, i'll do it for free, as in free of thinking it as a job. I'll make each and everyone of you, remember that what happened this one year together, cannot be replaced by anything, cannot be compared in proportion, it'll be something for you to remember, remember it visually you will.

Long story short, exams are over, happy about it, happy about the BBQ, already missing you all, i love you all, will be restarting Season 2 again with new opening/ending scenes, hope we stay in contact and be friends no matter what.

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