Bad person? & Hobby Forge

The saying goes, "If you have nothing good to say, say nothing at all.". I can do that in real life, but often I write more bad things more than I say.

I regret them but it just keeps happening. I wondered if technology adversely affects or something, it's supposed to help me socialise yet I abuse the method of using it.

There's also times I wonder if this side of me is inherently bad. This villain in me is only trapped from moving about in real life but the mind lets it loose to the virtual world, only in certain moments I can resist it's temptation.

But enough about that, I've already written dozens of different ways to write about my problem, I think I should take a break and pretend to talk about my recent happenings.

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Recently I...

Painted this (red ones)

Built and painted this.

And a bunch of small soldiers.

My life is not exciting I know, but keeps a negative thinking mind positive.

On weekends, I usually play my usual wargames with fellow players. It's not a great social community but one that it's at least a place I like to hang out.

I don't talk much about the place, huh?

Alvin, the Hobby Forge owner.

It's where I'd rather be since I don't fit well in any other place, except for home.

A trip there from Rawang takes about 15 to 30 minutes depending on traffic and how fast drive on the highway. It's fairly far considering what I do over there but worth it I guess.

This wasn't the first place I went to for my gaming needs, it was at a place filled with walking B.O.s.

I only played there once or twice, then the owner closed it because sales wasn't doing well? I'm not sure why but one thing's for sure is the service totally sucks balls. Stocks are not readily available and ordering from the owner is very unreliable, he just doesn't give you the sense of assurance as to what he says. It's a rather typical anti-social dump he considers a shop and a place to play.

But it's fine because it gave me the chance to search for other places and I found Hobby Forge. It's somewhere near Sunway Giza, whilst just across Tropicana Medical Centre.

I have only vivid memories of how I met Alvin and how it went on, it was to years ago, 2010. Though if I recall, I only came to check if the place existed and how was the owner and the shop itself. To my surprise, it's totally opposite of the place I first went. Clean, organised and well-stocked. Alvin is one of the friendliest person I've ever met, in terms of a customer and seller relationship, he's knowledgeable in his dealings, actually knowing how to play and paint is important in promoting his shop since he gets questions alot, unlike the guy I mentioned as he only knew how to paint and even that he has problems explaining to me on what to get to paint.

The people that knows him or the community at the place are mostly friendly too, albeit some are socially awkward and maybe too enthusiastic to their hobby. But I'd rather be as a fellow player than a friend since the only common thing we have is the hobby, other than that it's either difficult to truly socialise since we don't meet every week or so, OR they have rather 'extreme' interests that just doesn't interest me.

That said, they are friendly, as in they would help or teach you when you don't know something and won't be harsh when playing. Likewise, I myself after painting and gaming for sometime, I would advise the newer players too since I wish to contribute to the community rather than just leech from it.

In the past, I usually just came to play with Marcus, but since time past on, I took the next step and I played with other people. I've always thought I could only play with someone I knew but after a few games, this was called socialising. In some ways this had happened to be my getaway from reality.

Time continues, I knew more about the people there, including the owner and some of his close friends. Other then the hobby, I sometimes have dinner with the owner, usually at the mamak downstairs from his shop. However, it got repetitive to eat the same thing so he would suggest some place else. Though it seems to happen when there are less people and go with friends he's more close to. I guess it's just common courtesy since not inviting probably looks bad and just sad but it's not every time I accept the offer or anticipate one. There's one time he took me to a rather expensive looking place that sells mostly pork dishes, USA style. To my surprise he paid for the meal, I'm thankful for that.

The only girl I've ever seen came often to the shop was Alvin's girlfriend, sorry if I have to make a big deal of every girl I meet. They are older than me by 2 or 3 years by the way. I believe Janice, wasn't with him the whole time when I first met Alvin since I only see them got close recently. She looks timid and cute but surprisingly an anime cosplayer. She paints models but doesn't play, always seen walking about or just sits and paints at the corner of the shop. She sometimes can be seen staring, though I only notice that she does that to me or more often than other people, it kinda makes me nervous. One of the few people I talked with, briefly often in Facebook but nowadays, not much, I wanted to, but it's not right if my intentions were wrong.

Anyways, the shop. It's kinda sad that the miniatures the company sell increases their price every year and it's not cheap from the beginning, but Alvin finds small ways to deal with it even he doesn't seem to profit often. I'm not doing well financially, at least that's how I feel as the years go by. Even though I don't spend much on myself, it's my parents that does the spending on me. Regardless, I wish to support his shop in anyway possible, I even thought of helping him out with legal stuff once I become an experienced lawyer.

The shop has helped me a lot of going through this phase, if not I'd probably be sulking at the corner of my room every weekend as I have no where to be but just myself. 

It'll be life changing again as I'll go to UK for my final year. To say the least, I hoped someone I knew came with me to Aberystwyth, a bit selfish; someone I want to be with. Now I plan on joining clubs, the wargame club which I hope don't suck and the archery club.

Getting results today, don't really want to meet anyone in particular. Just want to get my results.