Heh, i think a post for once a week is too long to wait ;P. I'd always feel something has to be done every now and then when i'm back at home doing nothing. Since, most of the friends now have blogs, so often that there will be always something to read about(yeah MJ,MQ,M, SW, K and others, i read your blogs and they are quite interesting ^.^) and to be fair, i guess i'll post something, maybe a little about myself and what do i think of others.
Well, writing daily activities is a bit boring so i guess i'll summarize it as clear as possible.
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What did i do for the last few days?
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There was suppose to be a presentation for Malaysian Studies on last Monday but it wasn't our turn but our group leader, has decided to be the first to do it next week. Quite nervous that time, yeah about that, do any of you reactions when you panic or get nervous? I know i do, i find myself forgetting to swallow saliva and will start to have a cough-like 'vomit'. Yeah it sounds weird but that reaction happens to me when i'm waiting or preparing for something like -- waiting to go to college, waiting attend an exam, prepare for going out with friends... something like that. Well the question is, why am i really nervous about going to hang out with friends...?
That's for you to find out, heh.
I had also went to Time Sqaure to celebrate one of my college mates birthday, it pretty much - a random, funny, interesting and memorable time. Oh i forgot to mention that i like taking pictures of my friends. Well, that's sorta my liking, i'm interested in capturing people when they do not really 'pose' for the camera; it's when they are just at their casual moments. And of course i will not make this pictures publicly known, i respect the people in the photos so this pictures would only be taken for the sake of ONLY letting them have it or looking at it, well with the exception of me of course.
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Random things about my life and myself
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Apparently things settle down once you head back home, not much happens back at the 'Home Sweet Home' ; mostly because i feel home as place of peace and harmony, so most of the time i'd get myself into shape as in doing whatever that can increase esteem and confidence. Recently, i've been trying to reduce my intake of meat to none because increasing low self-esteem since i find it hard to have time to exercise as i only like dancing which i can probably do it 3 hours non-stop. Yup, dancing , is my very own hobby and my most favourite, i'd dance whenever there is cool beat; even in shopping malls. Anyways, because i can't that more oftenly, i started eating more green less yellow or white... And i think i can do it, maybe little by little i may see some results. Not to mention i'm also planning to get a fruit fasting recipe where i will only drink mix fruits on a daily basis which is known as a detox diet.
Well enough about that, lets see, i've been thinking a lot about friendship lately, maybe i'm becoming emo or something but i seem to always fill my head about with thoughts of regret. I've been told that i'm shy and asked why, well most people will jump to conclusion that i'm anti-social, but im not, totally the opposite, i'd crave for someone to talk to but i can't and when i say talk i mean really get to talk more about things like feelings. The other reason why i don't really show my feelings because of the locations; a busy classroom break? nope; a crowded train? nah.; a normal hangout with friends?Not even close.
In my opinion, i think only the most appropriate requirments to talk like would be-
1.The group in the conversation - fewer than 5 people.
2.A peaceful and quiet place, e.g a almost deserted cafe.
3.Comfortable seats or environment with the optional relaxing music.
The people to talk to? Anyone, as long as they are good listeners and has a sense of politeness and gentleness and also the most important thing, understanding.
So far i don't in my life, i have found such people aside from my family. Even if i had close friends doesn't mean they would be undestanding and all; i had a few of them a few years back but not so undestanding and concerning when i talk to them. Sigh... maybe guys just aren't cut out to be like that, jeez maybe i should hang out with girls more often, at least they would even be worried by just telling them you feel emo, hah.
Hopefully no one reads this part, you didn't read it... right?.
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